i intend to be your last.

"I am not happy. I am not unhappy. I am frozen somewhere in the middle that is so much worse. I am NOWHERE. Nothing is happening and I am getting more and more sad."

- Samantha Schutz, I Don’t Want to be Crazy (via zoophile)

2 days ago | 35604

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, i was literally saying these exact words to my best friend an hour ago, trying to explain the horrible inbetween-ness, i don't know what to do, personal, quote

guess what guys…

I GOT THE INTERNSHIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 weeks ago | 13

, i got the call yesterday and today was the first day and it was really cool!!!!!!!!, yay i'm being good at life!, :'))))))))), personal, blah blah text post

wow so i may or may not have just interrupted one of my new flatmates’ sexy shenanigans

3 weeks ago | 4

, hahaha oH DEAR, i just knocked on her bedroom door to ask about the house keys and there was a boy half-lying on her bed MY BAD, facepalm, personal, blah blah text post

so i’m moving to another flat in, oh, fifteen ish minutes and i haven’t really met any of my new flatmates yet and i’m leaving my comfy little nest here with my sister and i’m so nervous i’m gonna thrOW UP

3 weeks ago | 6

, i'm so nervous omg there are butterflies in my stomach or maybe even i don't know giant birds in there or something it's all very churn-y, i know i'm being silly but I HATE CHANGE it really unsettles me and i don't know these girls at alllllll, sighhh i just need to take some deep breaths ughhh I HATE NERVES my stomach really hurts, personal, blah blah text post

god i hate how worrying about the future makes me feel frustrated and angry and hopeless and stressed and desperate and lonely and sad all at the same time

3 weeks ago | 10

, i'm just a big mess of UPSET right now sigh, i don't know what to do i just want to not care for like a day that would be really really nice, personal, about me, blah blah text post

OH GOD I JUST WOKE UP FROM THE BEST AND MOST REALISTIC DREAM I’VE EVER HAD where for some reason i just like met nico mirallegro at a friend’s place and we had to go to all these different parties looking for something and it was playing out in real time so it actually felt like i spent an entire day with him and he was so damn PRETTY and everytime he smiled or laughed or said something in that accent i was just like *_________* and oh god i have never been so sad to wake up before i s2g

3 weeks ago | 6

, and i remember my auntie was there for some reason, she was driving us all to these parties and at the end of it i was like, YOU HAVE TO TAKE A PHOTO OF NICO AND ME my tumblr friends are never going to believe this, and it was the bEST PHOTO IN THE WORLD omg i'm so sad it doesn't actually exist irl uhhh, sad sad fangirl life, although actually this was the first dream i've ever had where i was actually hanging out with a famous person?, personal, blah blah text post

sometimes boys smell really really good and it kind of creates a problem for me idk

1 month ago | 8

, i literally was like stalking this boy who got off at the same tram stop as me, and like smelling his scent as i walked behind him am i creepy or whAT, and then i realised we lived in the same building awkwARD HAHAHAH, he smelt so good omg i just wanted to grab him and squish him, i'm such a freak i'm s O RRY, filed under: really really weird things that beau does on a daily basis, sigh, personal, blah blah text post

akshdjsdhfjdksfhskjf omg you guys i just had an interview for an editorial internship today and i was pretty nervous but i think (???) it went pretty well but i just want it so bad omg the experience would be so so good so pls just cross your fingers that i get it????????

1 month ago | 10

, I'M SO NERVOUS ugh idk i think it went okay but they're interviewing a few more people next week, please let them pick me!!!!!, personal, blah blah text post

omg you guys i was so good at life today

i went for a run (even though it was raining!)
i bought boring stuff i needed like sheets and socks but also these really cute pair of boots cause i needed some flat ones
i made cookies!!!!!! (even though they all melted into each other and became one giant mega-cookie and i had to hack them apart with a knife hahahahaha baking goddess i am nOT)
and i wrote a film review i was going to put off til tomorrow!